It seems like I am the only high school senior that doesn’t know where they are going to college or who their roommate is! It’s kind of unnerving, especially because I have to wait until Thursday to go visit the last school I’m interested in. I’m sure (I’m hoping) that once I go there, I’ll really know where I want to spend the next four years of my life. ‘ll think of something great or not so great and I’ll think that I need to go to that school or that there’s no way that I could go to that school. That doesn’t sound like a problem until I realized that I kept thinking of good and not-so-good things for both the schools I’m seriously considering. All of this indecisiveness about schools has made some of the best months of high school/ my childhood (although it is weird, considering I’m almost an adult!) incredibly stressful (not to mention the added stress of being in an incredibly strenuous academic program). It is hard to relax, especially since I know I should be working on something or another. All work and no play makes Caroline very worn down! I have been able to find a few things that do alleviate the pressure of being a millennial in one of the most transitional and transformative times of my life:
- playing soccer!!!
- yoga (my mother and I started going to classes regularly a few months ago, and I’ve started to become comfortable in the positions and transitioning from pose to pose, which sounds small, but is very important in the practice. I will continue practicing in college, which will give me a constant in that time of change)
- reading nonfiction books about topics that I’m interested in (because although I’m enjoying the book and the content, I am still learning)
- watching an episode or two of The Office (no episode fails to make me laugh. One of my friends and I always talk about The Office, so it’s good to have something new/old to talk about with them)
- baking cookies (I discovered this when I baked cookies to ask my friend to our school’s Sadie Hawkins dance. I went home and baked cookies instead of laying on the couch, eating a snack, and being on my phone, and I felt much more relaxed and ready to take on my homework!)
Things I’ve discovered that don’t relax me and instead make me feel like I’m wasting my time:
- scrolling through my social media feeds (because they just suck my time! Once I start, I find it very hard to stop, even when I’m supposedly “working on homework”)
- semi-napping or sleeping in late (although I am constantly sleep deprived, which takes a toll on my health and mental capabilities, when I don’t take a full nap after school and just doze, I never feel rested. When I sleep in late on weekends, I wake up and go on my phone for about an hour, setting a non-productive and lazy tone for the day, which is detrimental because to get my homework done in a well and timely fashion, I need to work on homework both days of the weekend)
- listening to music while working (I need to be in a very particular mood, and I can only listen to instrumental music or music I’m not familiar with, or else I get absolutely no work done)
I hope some of my habits can help you all determine what makes you feel relaxed and calm! I also hope my indecisiveness can inspire you to make a decision today!
currently listening to: Let’s Get Started by Dylan Gardner
currently watching: old episodes of The Office
currently reading: Death at SeaWorld by David Kirby (still, I know! I already did my presentation, but I never finished the book, and it’s so interesting!!)